Recently, Wednesdays have been arranged with too many tests and quizzes. Performed really badly, because of my over-occupied mind, I decided to temporally quit all my activities and focus on the “fight” with this Wednesday’s economy mid-term to end up the nightmare of all my schoolwork with a happy ending. I became too nervous and upset, with the heart palpitating.
The day was totally messed up by the worried mind.
“Are you too busy or too serious to isolate yourself from others?”
Professor unexpectedly came up with such a question.
Wow! Too busy? Too serious? Is that me?!
Oh my! I was shocked…and afraid..
Originally, I thought those who got encouragement from friends were lucky dogs, who won the support and care from friends. However, as Professor said, another interpretation is, the person might be isolating himself or herself from the crowd, which makes their behavior eyes-catching.
Amazing! But it is also a possible rational thinking…then did it show I was the isolated person?! Oh my!
Thanks to Professor Udani’s “Thank-U Note”, my uneasy mind was finally disappear with such cute notes from my friends.
Although our experience or activities being together was different, they commented one thing in common---“thanks for your shiny smile to me and all of us”.
Wow, am I? ^_^
What they all loved is my smile and happy face! I thought I had lost them after recent sufferings in minds! Am I?
Cool! Thanks so much, my dears. U all are telling me that I am still me, Giselle, the optimistic girl with happy face, not the one who transfer sufferings and sad mood to peers!
I am still myself?! You do raise me up, my dears, help me finding the person who I was and am and will keep being. I love You All!!!
The tight relations make us together, from “You” to “We”, from “Peers” to “Friends”, from “familiarity” to “friendship”… and our friendship will last long!
That the most important thing we gain from HC, the privilege to be friends with excellent persons in personality and academics; the privilege to build us a Team and a HC Family.
I think this is also the reason why Professor keeps inviting and proposing activities for HC family members to be together and social together to build up closer links!
Thanks to Professor Udani, we finally make it. We are family, we are together! Thanks to you all and the happy journey with you all!
Today, Professor Udani showed us some collection of the students’ expectation at the beginning of this semester.
The expectation has three levels:
Cognitive Level
--It is more related to the minds development of us. Each one of us is supposed to give reflections of what they are performing or improving and maybe share it through blogs. In this way, we will be able to look back from the past and keep growing.
Affective Level
--The leading question: How do u use your emotions? Are dominated by ur emotions, or u r so lucky to be the master of emotions?
These questions embarrassed me, when professor looked into my eyes and said, “u know I can easily know some of your emotions. They are just on ur face”. Oh my, indeed, I am the person, who doesn’t hide the all of my emotions. Sometime, even though I know the side effects, that is, leaving a poor impression of myself, I just let the emotion go. I am the one that is more likely to be impulsive. From the start point, I want to become more rational. But now…I still act as a child…What a shame on me…I have to change…T^T…
Behavioral Level
I swear I’ll put my feet on the ground!
As for improving communication skills, which the majority of us desire, it may be achieved on 4 aspects:
1—Reflection---the feeling or the gaining from music, videos
2---Awareness----aware of who u are
3—Acceptance---accept who u are and the reality
4---Action—change to be a better urself
The most touching part is the “Message-Sending” part. Although some of our classmates don’t receive messages, I am really luck to be cared for by my dear friends. After so much suffering both mentally and psychologically, I simply find it too hard to hold on. Suddenly, the warm words, the encouragement come, hug me with the strongest and the kindest supports. A tough girl, like me even couldn’t help trembling in my voice, when showed my sincere thanks to them. I LOVE THEM! ^_^ That’s why I choose to update my blog today!!!
Now I’m strong enough to face all the problems and obstacles. Like tonight, with one exam to prepare for tomorrow, 2 group discussions and 1 report, I have your warm words to help me actively deal with all of the tasks!!!
The second warmest part is the “You are your Lens” learning.
“ The way people see others is a reflection of themselves”.
Yes, if you have a flower in your mind, the people around you are flowers in your eyes. But if you focus on the bad things in your heart, others will be bad persons who do the bad things.
Attitudes decide the altitudes you’ll reach.
Remember, change yourself to the kind of person you want to be, then you will begin to view things in a different way. By the time you change your way of thinking, all the relationships around you will be changed.
To be a thankful and contented person, don’t focus on what we have, instead, focus on how we develop ourselves in the long journey of life.
“Do your best and leave the rest to God”.
Tonight, I’ll make it into practice and efficiently & effectively finish all of my TASKS! Keep adding Energy!
Recently, I’ve to admit that a lot of unexpected obstacles show up in my life. I did suffer a lot from the mental concern.
As people around me all know, I put all my heart into bringing AIESEC, the world’s largest student org in the world to UM and HC. The whole process was and is hard and tough. A lot of procedures needed to be done then. Just as Professor Udani said , when we met for group consultation that I was kind of lost in that world and did not even paid any efforts to care HC students around or other stuff of mine. How I regret now! My world then was in a great mess, although I knew something was wrong and I didn’t even have time to check the problem with too much AIESEC workload. Later on, it turned out that it was the over-occupied head led to my loss of notebook computer, all of the debit and credit cards and even ID card etc.
It never rain but it pours. It was just as if the bad luck series was not enough to upset me. Rumors of my most trusted core member betraying me nearly driven me crazy. I kept missing my NY time spent with my team and new friends, the pure friendship. I didn’t even want to look back and face the disgusting motives behind or the intrigue. The original vision of my endless efforts in AIESEC was only limited to do something meaningful so that when I grew elder, I might be proud of myself and be proud that my following UM schoolmates would benefit from a dream of mine. I even gave up the right of being manager to the most capable guy, who turned out to be the hero of the rumor to make use of my naïve and easygoing feature…a long story to tell…
All the extrinsic and intrinsic factors killed the happy me inside. This week was filled with sufferings and heartbreak. The exams, projects and assignments ended up in a great disaster. I didn’t see the future of me and wanted to quit.
“Leadership role is really hard because of these complicated human relationships. A leader should not be too naïve and cheated by the cream. However, only when you suffer, will you grow up and clearly see who your real friends that care about you are.”
Just then, my real friends show me their helping hands and helped me out of the big mess and find the optimistic and energetic Giselle back. I’m really thankful for all of you, my dears!!!!!!! I know all of you don’t use blog, but I wanna use blog as a secret blessing place and cross my fingers for you all. I love you dears…
I’ll grow up to be more mature and smile even more warmly when facing hard times with you. And I’ll be right there waiting for you, when you need me, when you are sad or upset.
We should never quit and we’ll be the one who smile till the last minute^_^Y
• “Chinese are better at English pronunciation”. Even “not-so-fluent-speaker” like me was praised many times by delegates from Japan, France, and Spain etc. The Japanese even mistook me for exchange students already been in the USA for many years. Therefore, our HC students shouldn’t have worried too much on their adaptability in the States in the coming year^_^ Just have belief in ourselves!
• “Chinese is becoming the world’s common language”. Astonishingly, too many foreign friends can speak too fluent Chinese beyond your imagination! Like living in enchanted world, I met “old China hand” from France, Germany, and Japan. And when my friends and I were joking that we were free to say anything, a French delegate suddenly came out. With a mysterious look wearing on his face, he put his hand on my shoulder and commented “Be careful, I know what you were talking about”. The air immediately went frozen. But, delightfully, we began our conversation and the “national pride” soared/ rocked up in the sky! We were and are really proud of the prosperity of our promising China!!! The increasing number of Chinese speakers proves that China is becoming more and more attractive for other parts of the world. We are growing strong!!! Later in the conference, we went to the permanent mission of the People’s Republic of China to the United Nations, and the head there also showed us statistics and diplomatic anecdotes of our wise domestic diplomats. We were even more confident for our country’s future.
• The States is amazingly “open”. However, this figure emotional hurt us Chinese mentally. For example, Dalai Lama, who aims at separating our nation, is publicized as Nobel Peace Prize Winner, a peace lover. Probably, it is because of political issue between nations. Whatsoever, the stronger our country is, the more influential power will she holds. Only if our country is big and strong enough, can we make our voice heard and win the support and respect from other countries.
