"Courage is not the absence of fear,but rather the judgeness that someting is more important that fear".
"To participate or not to participate" becomes a big problem for me. However,more mature and rational than before, I should be brave to face the music and not let people who love me down by overcoming the strongest enemy for be to grow up--physical fear to eventually be strong enough as a future leader.
Actually, I was the first to put one foot at the edge of the road and looked down and around. The scenery was amazingly fantastic and the feeling is really "cool". Believe or not,I even regreted not experience slipping over the rope and was eager for bungee jumping a lot. I'm still confident that if I was given the chance, I would not hesitate to jump down and enjoy the feeling of getting close to nature and the real myself.
It's clear that the height and the efforts you put to reach that level determine what you can enjoy then moment on that stage. For me, if I got escaped from the retreat, or if our HC team did not create an atmosphere of sharing and learning together, I would never ever had the courage to temporarily leave fear lone and focus on what I should do instead of what I want to do.
Thanks to our HC team and Professor Udani's special designed training, I learned that you will never know until you try and you never try until you really try. If you add your own efforts in the long journey of life,unexpected pleasure and experiences will along, which may even change your understanding of life. Whether you learn and grow up simply depend on whether you allow yourself to pursue.
Although, I missed the chance of rock climbing in order for our team to gain better grades, I did appreciate the sense of belonging,when our team coorperately cheered our team members up and offered directions for them.
It is the first time for me to try something really new to me and it won't be the last one! I'm loving HC! My dear friends, I'm proud of your performances!
Yesterday, we had our first retreat in the second semester of HC Program togeter with a once-in-a lifetime experience we'll never forget,especailly for me-a former"poltroon". It is the first time for me to bravely open arms to the possiblities and take chance to start of something "incredible" for myself.
Long before the retreat, I'd prepared to "wave goodbye to the world and get a heartattact and pass away".Althogh, in the personality test, I rank very high in the area of challeging new things, I tend to get rid of the physical challenges--the most important reason of my obesity.Throughourt my life as a student, PE is totally a disaster for me. I "hate" doing almost all kinds of sports and don't understand why others "feed on" it. Same case when I enter plearseground,the trough tickets don't fit me well, cause the only two games I played are merry-go-round and ferris wheel--the most peaceful ones.I was the most "conservative" child compared with peers.The idea of pushing such a "I" into doing the most hazardous put myself into a situation--not knowing whether to laugh or cry. I even thought of quitting the retreat so that friends may not know this secret coward part of a used-to be tough girl.
After the honestly sharing with friends my fearness in the "line game" in the "Freedom Writers" and encouraged by peers in the team-buiding activities, I began to follow the "Population Effects".It seemed taht we were going to conquer the obstacles together--I'm not alone! Right then,as the first group to experience the skywalk, my judgement whispered to me, the most important thing was not to fear but rather to set roles for friens who were watching us and psychologically as scared as us. Professor Udani kept supporting me by asking whether I was ok.
Actually, I was the first to put one foot at the edge of the road and looked down and around. The scenery was amazingly fantastic and the feeling is really "cool". Believe or not,I even regreted not experience slipping over the rope and was eager for bungee jumping a lot. I'm still confident that if I was given the chance, I would not hesitate to jump down and enjoy the feeling of getting close to nature and the real myself.
It's clear that the height and the efforts you put to reach that level determine what you can enjoy then moment on that stage. For me, if I got escaped from the retreat, or if our HC team did not create an atmosphere of sharing and learning together, I would never ever had the courage to temporarily leave fear lone and focus on what I should do instead of what I want to do.Thanks to our HC team and Professor Udani's special designed training, I learned that you will never know until you try and you never try until you really try. If you add your own efforts in the long journey of life,unexpected pleasure and experiences will along, which may even change your understanding of life. Whether you learn and grow up simply depend on whether you allow yourself to pursue.
Although, I missed the chance of rock climbing in order for our team to gain better grades, I did appreciate the sense of belonging,when our team coorperately cheered our team members up and offered directions for them.
It is the first time for me to try something really new to me and it won't be the last one! I'm loving HC! My dear friends, I'm proud of your performances!
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